I am so in tune with the men I session with, I came to the conclusion that if I was male it’s highly likely that I’d pay for wrestling sessions too. I love mixed wrestling and after a feisty, intense, full-on session (which most of them are) I am left feeling elated, like my opponents. When men started writing things about me like “Amethyst is a passionate wrestler. I am not sure I have wrestled any other woman who has this energy and emotion”, it struck me that this emotional disorder that I’d been battling with my whole life was working in my favour when it came to mixed wrestling. Not only is my emotion on the mats the reason sessions with me can be electric, it’s why I am so enthusiastic and passionate about wrestling.
“This is exactly how I wanted to feel” is what my opponent today said half way through our session when he begged for a water break, I handed him his bottle of water as he hunched over on all fours trying to catch his breath. Those words were like music to my ears. Wow, I made someone feel exactly how they wanted to feel! He was clearly pleased with my services, what made it even better is that he was very attractive. He looked like Andrew WK (he follows me on Twitter, I think it’s because he wants me to choke him out). I have a thing for long-haired men, I’ve only ever dated men with long hair. I loved looking down at him with his hair stuck to his skin with sweat as his red, wet face was squeezed beneath my thighs. I loved giving his hair a little tug as I sat on his nose and mouth, stopping him from breathing, smiling down at him. I loved feeling his long hair in my face as I had him in a rear naked choke. I loved punching him in the ribs, his groans made me giggle viciously. I guess you guys feel like this too when you have the soft skin of your favourite wrestler pressed up against you. I often wonder how you feel when I sit on your face and I know the answer is different for everyone because all my clients are individuals with different genetics, environments, upbringings and memories, all of which influence and transform the way we see and feel things. So, even facesitting is based upon a multicomponential set of values. Man, that’s deep. After my session with my long-haired opponent he said, “I want to say so many nice things to you right now but I’m a bit overwhelmed”, he stuttered, looking at the ground, clasping his head with both hands. This guy was really feeling it.
Since the beginning of my mixed wrestling career, I openly talked about my emotions, it’s something I have always done. When DW wrote that great review about his first session with me, the overall theme wasn’t about my level of skill or how strong my legs were, it was about how emotional I was when wrestling. I was pretty gobsmacked that he picked up on the fact I was an incredibly emotional person just from wrestling me. Me being extremely emotional was something that had hindered me my whole life, but now, on the mats, it was something affirmative. My honest and raw blog entries and posts on social media seemed to attract certain men, men who saw wrestling as something highly linked to emotion; they liked the emotional side of it as well as the physical.
Wrestling is indeed multisensory, I’ve always said that what I love most about wrestling is its multisensory factors. The smell of the mats, the feel of my sweat-drenched outfit, of your skin, of my skin, our armpits, our hair, the sounds of our sweaty limbs squeaking tightly across the mats, the grunts I make when I land to the floor with a thud, the suffocation sounds of my breastsmother. I love the sights too, the look on your face, the sweat rolling down my cleavage, and I’m sure you like the sight of me gripping your head in reverse headscissors. All the senses are swirling around in that matted room, all the senses are having a good grapple too. And there is nothing wrong with being emotional – it’s just science. Emotion is largely a chemical balance (or imbalance) in the brain, that’s all. Our society doesn’t value emotions as much as it should. I don’t know what our neurochemicals are doing when we are wrestling, scientifically, but I know, if we share electric wrestling chemistry where there are sparks on the mats, our dopamine, noradrenaline and serotonin levels will be soaring, just like your taps.
I sometimes exchange intimate emails with my clients before an upcoming session, especially if they are new, confused or in the early stages of exploring their fetish or new pastime. Talking to me not only eases their nerves but I’m often told what a release it is for them to talk to another human about it all, and one who understands, one who gets them! It can be so complex. Childhood bullying, insecurities about the body, physical intimacy issues and cultural contexts like being torn because you want or even need to wrestle but feel “wrong” for having this fetish. I don’t come across many men who are battling with their fetish, most accept it, celebrate it and explore it. I am pretty sure that is what you are meant to do when you have a fetish, safely. You can’t deny that having mixed wrestling as a hobby or a fetish or both is way more fun and healthy than a drug habit or going down the pub every single night, drinking with the same old lost souls, fantasising about wrestling Sydney Thunder as you finish your ninth pint.
Yeah, having mixed wrestling sessions can involve deep shit. I’m no psychologist but I’ve had therapy many times in my life (I feel wiser than most on this subject) and I have dealt with numerous friends and family members who have a multitude of mental health issues from schizophrenia to OCD. Besides, fetishes and their origin fascinate me, including my own which I can trace back to childhood. Me being highly emotional means I am incredibly empathic; I can literally feel other people’s emotions and that is another reason my wrestling sessions can be explosive. A person’s facial expressions tell me so much more than any paragraph they could write or speak. I’ve always been very sensitive to body language too. I can tell when someone is bored, happy, anxious, nervous, agitated even when they try to hide it. When I wrestle someone who LOVES wrestling me, I feel it and it makes me so happy and excitable; an awesome, intense sweaty session where there’s electric chemistry between us can leave me feeling pumped and high for hours, even days.