When I was seventeen I worked at Halfords. It was my first ever job and I hated it. I would’ve hated a supermarket or a clothes shop even more. At least at Halfords I learnt stuff and got to play with anti-freeze and car batteries. Two years later I was in Los Angeles, I was dancing naked by smoke machines and the LA Lakers.
It’s excitement I need.
Since my last blog entry I’ve done some fun wrestling things. Excitement is a big part of why I joined the scene.
A couple of weeks ago I took part in a live webcast with the scene’s biggest wrestling star VeVe Lane and some of the London based wrestlers; Minxy Li and Anastaxia, (I know, we look cool as fuck). We even did a virtual arm wrestle.
Then, just over a month ago I did my first ever Submission Room mixed wrestling film which shot to popularity and is apparently one of the the best selling mixed wrestling films to date! I made a cool little YouTube clip too which I was quite proud of. I thoroughly enjoyed the match, happened to wrestle an old friend, he didn’t know what he was letting himself in for. Poor Neil. We had great wrestling chemistry. There is one bit where I have him grunting hard in my body scissors and he looks up at me in desperation and that look is so damn sexy, it does things to me every time I watch it. I think I might invite him over one night for ”Netflix and chill”. Lucky Neil.
And just before Christmas I took part in my first ever live wrestling event hosted by Pippa. I drew 0-0 with the gorgeous Laken (so, it wasn’t a proper match; it was more of an entertaining wrestle, full of Christmas cheer and giggly smothering). I won 2-0 against Desi. It was a pretty fair match as we are similar sizes and we started wrestling at exactly the same time, though I’d built up some muscle and am heavier, she struggled with my weight on her so I took advantage of that. She was stubborn as hell, like myself and a great wrestler, just not as strong. I told her afterwards, if she worked hard on her legs at the gym, she’d have got me and probably won; her scissors just didn’t make me tap, luckily for me. Her headlocks were lethal! I remember letting out a sound I had never ever heard myself do, in my whole life. I know from experience how painfully difficult it is to hold on to your opponent in a headlock who’s pulling with all their might and struggling to break free; your arms start to burn, so I just kept pulling backwards out of her lock as hard as I could until I succeeded. It hurt but it was not as painful as Miss KO digging her elbows into my thighs with everything she had during my first ever female vs female film (that film’s not out yet but this one is, at TC Wrestling). Apparently, the word most used to describe mine and Desi’s fight was”savagery”, not sure how I feel about that. It was mentally challenging hurting her, squeezing until she tapped in pain. I know she’s tough though, it was the look of defeat on her face afterwards that was harder to witness. Nobody likes that feeling.
It was such a fun day and I got to do five mini matches with guys after all the female vs female matches. I teamed up with Blaze who I’d always wanted to meet. I won’t lie though, I was ridiculously nervous before the event. I was so nervous I almost took beta blockers which a friend gave to me, he takes them for stage fright. I was worried my nerves would interfere with my wrestling skills but I was doubly worried beta blockers would make me too relaxed and I knew I needed my Hammerfist feistiness to shine through and help me win. Huge support from some of the guys and wrestlers, Minxy Li’s messages before the event encouraged me to believe in myself.